FADING AWAY IS FINALLY HERE!!!!!!!! 😻 I'm so excited to hear what you guys think of this one!
I wrote this song last August when I realized how scarily out of touch with myself I'd been all summer. I didn't really feel sad but I definitely didn't feel happy. I was very grey and numb and it freaked me out. Usually a dark time for me means lots of pain and knowing exactly where it's coming from but this was a strange anxiety lacking any sense of direction or what to do about it.
Eventually I realized I had lost all priority in my own life and I felt so dead inside because I put myself last for months in a row and was feeling the side effects of that. I continually ignored my needs and desires until I couldn't feel them anymore and that was the scary emptiness I was experiencing. It was such a relief to figure that out and be able to do something about it but I was so concerned/scared before I understood that.
If you've ever felt extremely overwhelmed yet completely clueless about how to fix it, just know that you're totally not alone and I'm right there with you. I'm glad I can share this story because if any of you are in the same boat, maybe it'll help you as well to prioritize yourself and your mental health and see if that kicks you back into gear.
Love you guys and remember, you are important. You deserve to feel seen and understood, especially by your own mind. Make sure you're giving yourself the time and attention you deserve 'cause no one deserves to feel so abandoned, especially not by their own heart.
SAVE THIS SONG ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/3BsghQyckdsXebLUMeksmN?si=XhEgt5Y7QVSggA7Muys5fQ
ITUNES/APPLE MUSIC: https://music.apple.com/us/album/fading-away-single/1509895814
GOOGLE PLAY: https://play.google.com/store/music/album?id=Bjsrhnx7q2kqxheyolz5sxtyiua&tid=song-Tox2p762ggkcqtxhdq3juromxm4&hl=en_US
LYRICS:
I feel like I’ve been gone for a long time
My body’s present but I cannot find my mind
I used to love feeling everything inside
But I’m afraid the well’s run dry
Every time I get a second to myself
I can’t help but give it up to someone else
My brain is like a cavernous empty shell
and I’m lost inside
What is going on?
Where has my heart gone?
I miss the sun
CHORUS:
I paint a smile on my face, I keep my hands busy
I try to trick myself but I know I am not okay
I’m breaking under the weight, of the guilt filling up my plate
I feel myself fading away...
I just wanna be left all alone
Don’t wanna say yes
Don’t wanna say no
Don’t wanna hear a sound anywhere I go
The pain is too much, just let me be alone.
It hurts me to stay, it kills me to go
Letting you down, hurts more than you know.
And I could never be, all that you want
And it's been tearing me apart
What is going on?
Why am I so numb?
I miss the sun
CHORUS:
I paint a smile on my face, I keep my hands busy
I try to trick myself but I know I am not okay
I’m breaking under the weight, of the guilt filling up my plate
I feel myself fading away...
And I know I can't keep living this way
All these sleepless nights and wasted days
I know what's to come if I don't change
I'll soon have faded away...
I think of everyone else
But no one's there for me
I've got to love myself
And tell them I am not okay
I'm buried under the shame
And there's nobody else to blame
I feel myself fading away
I won't let myself fade away...
Love you guys,
xo - Lisa Cimorelli
